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The Joy of Raising Children Who Ponder

I’m thrilled to share a guest post today from my friend, Janet Newberry. Janet’s book Education by Design, Not Default has challenged much of my thinking about education and energized me as we face our last few years of home education.

This summer, my community of homeschool moms is reading Janet’s book and meeting to discuss how we can further homeschool by design and not by default.

It’s an important question - one that I think every homeschool parent (and all parents, really) need to be asking themselves.

I encourage you to pick up a copy of Janet’s book, listen to her podcast (Brave Love), and be encouraged as you read her words here today!

Ahhhh—summer.  

It’s here!

Summer, at its finest, is an invitation to take a deep breath and move slowly into leisure—instead of striving to measure up in all the ways the traditional school year often requires.

Taking a deep breath is a good first step into summer.  Our bodies need the permission that fresh air offers us to shift into a slower gear.  

Leisure is a good second step.  Remember leisure?  Experiences like fishing or needlework…painting or gardening?  

Leisure is:

  • a great book—read in a hammock. 

  • writing a letter—to someone you love so much you wouldn’t consider simply emailing.

  •   a quiet, slow hike—or a walk on the beach.

Leisure offers an experience of good, true, and beautiful.  Our souls need leisure.  Susie Larson says, “What happens in our souls, happens in our cells.”

Our bodies need leisure, too.

Leisure is different than entertainment. 

Often entertainment tells us what to think—and, often we engage in entertainment when we’re too tired to think for ourselves.  Having to be right all day has worn us out.  

Leisure is an invitation to…ponder. 


Ponder - A Definition

Pondering is not about being right.  Pondering is about considering and questioning.

Pondering is a journey…to wisdom and truth.  

One definition I found of the word “ponder” says “to weigh in the mind.”  Another says, “to consider something deeply and thoroughly; meditate.”

Pondering is a fairly new habit for me.  Before I pondered, I simply knew.  Or, I didn’t know—and I avoided, or pretended to know.  My shame story told me it wasn’t ok to be wrong.  I believed the lie that not knowing meant I didn’t fit in—or measure up.  Not being right was not being good enough.  Not being good enough was the edge of rejection for me. I was afraid to fail—so I was afraid to learn.

In my book, Education by Design, Not Default, I write this:

I don’t remember much of what I learned in college, but I do remember this:  One professor said, ‘Confusion precedes real learning.  If you’re not confused, you already know.’

Education today is not kind to confusion.  Confusion is to be avoided.  Confusion invites fear, and shame, and hiding.  Confusion attracts bullies.  Confusion often ends up with a label.

When education is not kind to confusion, school is not a safe place to learn.

Confusion is a kind of (good) struggle.  When we are not left alone in our confusion, persevering produces maturity.
— Janet Newberry (pp. 40-41)

I’m delighted to report that I find myself pondering quite a bit these days.  If I were to introduce myself at a “Perfectionist Anonymous” meeting, I might say, “Hi—I’m Janet.  I am recovering from always needing to be right.  I’m learning to live in the freedom of pondering.”

When my husband and I take walks together, he often hands me my phone—so I can voice record the ideas we discover when we ponder together.  Our walks—and our talks—are leisure.  Permission to ponder.

Pondering is a safe place—so it’s a good place to learn.

There is no fear in pondering.  Pondering is a like healing oil. It’s a maturing experience.  Truth sweeps away lies.  Learning grows in the fertile bed of confusion.  Wisdom settles in—and quiets our worry.

Childhood is designed as a season ripe for finding truth.  It is a time of growing up and finding our voice.  Confusion is the prelude to a fresh symphony—rather than an alarm that sounds because, “I don’t know.”


The Question

So, how do we raise children who linger—and enjoy the art of pondering? 

Perhaps it will require us to ponder the traditional aim of education—of recording scores of perfect performance…or something less.

Can I suggest a different aim?  I ask, because this is the summary of my 30+ years of research:

When we aim at the target of performance, relationships and maturity always suffer.  

When we aim at the target of supporting healthy relationships and maturity, performance goes off the charts.  

Will you ponder with me—the traditional performance target?  — and the potential of a different, transformational target?

What if we do not yet see education as it is designed to be experienced? What if we’ve lost sight of childhood—as it was designed to be experienced?

If there is real hope in aiming at a different target, we can cease looking for new ways to make a bull’s eye on the old target.  Performance isn’t evil; it truly is important.  Performance is simply a poor primary motive for children who are living in a season marked out in life as one of learning—not one of needing exemplary test scores.

I’m inviting you to ponder a new adventure in your own life—not just in the summer. And, I’m giving you permission to change your mind about the primary aim of education—in the hope of finding a better direction to lead our children.

The new invitation is to see two road signs on the path of childhood. As parents, we get to point out the fork in the road to our children. One sign points to a path that says, "Perform perfectly and life will work out perfectly." Another sign points to a different path—and reads, "Adventure awaits. Let’s discover freedom, together!”


Freedom - The Transformational Journey

Freedom is a transformational journey for our children—and, no one lives in freedom by themselves. Alone, we are all vulnerable to our blindspots--and the wisdom our own journey has yet to offer. 

The old aim in traditional education is bondage—to fear and shame. To get help, we need a label. To need help, there must be something wrong with us.

But God created Eve as a "help-mate." God says, "It's not good to be alone." We are wired to find deep satisfaction in being loved and loving others--not in our independent striving and perfection.

So, this is our challenge, in "all things READING" and "all things WRITING" and I predict "all things...." We have this destiny before us--to redeem childhood. 

We have the chance to help our children see the lies and find the truth—in a relationship with reading and math and science and history and art and nature and music. We get to help them know the truth about childhood, because knowing the truth about childhood will help them experience the truth about God...and about us...and about themselves.

Education by design is not a contest designed to see how well our children can remember vocabulary and make sense of pre-packaged questions on a comprehension test. Education is a feast—enjoyed with great books, like fine wine—designed to be delightful and delicious and deeply satisfying.

No one acquires a taste for feasting foods and fine wine on their own. The best affections are caught--not taught.

We get to be the ones that say to each child,

Follow me. I’ve got you, kid. I’ve seen this coming for a long time. I know this is a challenge and I know you’ve got a pocket full of doubts. It’s ok that everything’s not ok. It’s ok that you’re going to stumble sometimes. Me, too. It’s good to be me, here with you. Adventure and love and mystery and romance awaits. We’re not going to sit this one out.

God has something for you and for me inside the pages of this book.  God has a treasure for you to discover in math—and science.  There is wisdom to be found in history. God has a destiny for you in this hurting world—to make a difference for good. Let’s discover what it is—and trust Him, together.

My own heart has often considered Luke 2:19…with a whispered wow.  It’s the verse about Mary, after she’s watched the shepherds adore newborn Jesus in his baby bed manger —

“But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.” (Luke 2:19, NIV)

Confused?  Probably.  

Perfect comprehension?  It’s not possible.

Conflicted by chaos?  She had to be.

And delighted by sacred wonder?  Most definitely.

I like to imagine Father God, sitting on the edge of His Throne, peering over the edge of eternity…smiling at Mary.  “Oh, the joy of raising children who ponder!”


Practical Suggestions

Maybe you’re already pondering—

How do I apply these ideas in my homeschooling experiences with my own children?  I’m so glad you asked

1.   Instead of answering pre-packaged questions about a chapter (or a passage) you’re reading together in Literature, Bible, History, or Science, try this instead:  Divide a blank sheet of note-taking paper in half, from top to bottom to make two columns.  Label the first column “Considerations” and the second column “Questions.”  

After the reading, spend about 10 minutes letting each person (teacher and child/ren) write down the ideas they found to be noteworthy in the “Considerations” column.  These can be ideas that are new, ideas that offer a fresh perspective, something you’ve never thought of before, something you want to remember…and ponder…

Also, write down questions you thought of during the reading—in the “Questions” column.  These can be questions about what you didn’t clearly understand, questions about new learning you’re wondering about now that you’re discovering what’s in this text, questions you want to research because now you’re curious…

Everyone gets a turn to share their considerations and questions in discussion.  You can always return to the text to clarify—if someone’s considerations demonstrate a misunderstanding.  There’s no penalty for being wrong.  There’s simply an opportunity to ponder—and learn.

For older students, the lists can also be a part of brainstorming in the writing process—for creating paragraphs or essays.  For all of us, the lists can become a way of meditating on scripture, or keeping a prayer journal.

2.  Ask different kinds of questions after you’ve read with your child.  Instead of the typical  questions about plot and setting and theme, or knowledge level questions that can be graded easily on a multiple choice test and then forgotten, ask questions that invite pondering. 

There is a list of these kind of questions in my book (Education by Design, Not Default—How Brave Love Creates Fearless Learning )  on pp. 95-96—in chapter nine, “Traditions by Design.” Here are a few examples: 

  • “What is ________ believing to be true about himself right now?  How do you know?”

  • “What is ________ afraid of?  What is the evidence and the effect of fear in his own life?  What is the effect of his fear on others?”

  • “What is the impact and influence of love on _________?  Who/what is the source of love?  In what ways is love evident?”

Oh, the joy of raising children who ponder! 


When we offer our children an honest childhood, we offer the world trust-worthy adults. There is great hope.


Janet Newberry is an educational consultant and author of   Education by Design, Not Default: How Brave Love Creates Fearless Learning   which aspires to redeem childhood by offering tips to cultivate transformational experiences for our children.  She is also the founder of  John 15 Academy  which supports the success of homeschooling families. Find out more on  " target="_blank">her website , and connect with her on  Instagram  and  Facebook.   She and her husband are the hosts of the  Brave Love podcast.

Janet Newberry is an educational consultant and author of Education by Design, Not Default: How Brave Love Creates Fearless Learning which aspires to redeem childhood by offering tips to cultivate transformational experiences for our children.

She is also the founder of John 15 Academy which supports the success of homeschooling families. Find out more on her website, and connect with her on Instagram and Facebook.

She and her husband are the hosts of the Brave Love podcast.


Janet’s book has been causing me to reevaluate many of my homeschooling goals and values.

I would love to hear from you in the comments about this… what is your reaction to Janet’s post?

And, will give your children an invitation to simply PONDER?

Mama, Don't Fret - Here's the "Long View" of Homeschool

An amazing thing has transpired in our homeschool over the past two years.

It’s something that has been hard fought and well won; it is also something that could only happen with patience and perseverance.

I’m not sure of the most accurate word for it, but I think CLARITY or PEACE are accurate descriptors.

You see, when my children were little I fretted about a lot of homeschool decisions:

  • Which spelling curriculum should I choose?

  • Will switching math programs damage my children for the rest of their lives?

  • Should we teach “writing”, or learn to emulate good writers through copywork and dictation?

  • Is my child enjoying learning - are we being too “serious”?

  • Are we doing enough nature study?

  • Shouldn’t I enroll them in art classes?

  • Which science curriculum most accurately represents my worldview?

And on and on those decisions/questions went.

I wish I could sit with each of you reading this now and tell you one thing:

Don’t Fret. Eliminate worry from your homeschool life.

Mama, Don’t Fret… Here’s the “Long View” of #Homeschooling

As I watched my daughter go through her graduation weekend festivities I was struck so many times by the GOODNESS and FAITHFULNESS of God.

I was struck by my own weakness, and how in the homeschool journey God was STRONG.

Graduating a homeschooler is so much more than completing an educational process. It is surviving a journey, making an investment, and launching a soul into the world.

If I were to travel back 10 years I would tell myself (and now I’m telling YOU) not to fret. I know that there are certain things that will just occur in your homeschool journey. A few (but not all) of these are:


Your Child Will Most Certainly Have “Gaps”

Do you know that we ALL have gaps in our education? It is inevitable.

I believe your children will be drawn to what interests them, and you will be drawn to guide them through their interests. One of my children is more literature and arts minded, and the other is more math and science minded.

I’m not quite sure who defines what children should “know” upon graduation from homeschool, but I want to suggest to you that YOU be the one to define what your children should know.

Sit down and make a list of what is important for your children to know and keep that list front and center.

You Will Make Bad Curriculum Choices

We stopped and started with math with my oldest.

I made a bad choice early on when it came to math. It seemed that we continued to flounder after this because I hadn’t given her that early foundation.

I believe, however, that these bad choices can lead to good - or at the very least to let us know what did NOT work for our children.

My daughter’s math education was redeemed by her online experience with Mr. D Math.

I learned from her early math hiccups what was important about math and decided to stay the course with Saxon Math for my son.



Sometimes There Will Be Not-So-Good Years

I can guarantee you will have a bad homeschool year (or two).

Even in traditional school there will be bad years.

The advantage to a homeschool bad year is that you will learn from it, and that you will go through it WITH your children. There is much to be said from surviving a bad year TOGETHER.

Wouldn’t you rather do that than have your child go through a bad year alone?

For the record, one year we stopped homeschooling at the end of March and didn’t pick back up formally again until August. Oh, we were reading and doing math and taking field trips, but I had run out of energy for the day to day of an organized homeschool. And you know what? We all survived and were renewed and ready when we began again.



There WILL Be Tears

Mama, I want you to embrace those tears. Don’t see them as a sign of weakness.

Homeschooling can be HARD, and sometimes crying is called for. It’s cathartic.

There are days when I’m pretty sure I caused my children to cry - and on those days I asked for forgiveness and a hug. On other days I know my children’s crying was self-inflicted, but this was always a good learning experience.

It’s good to have a family member or friend you can cry to - someone who will just commiserate with you and offer a word of advice.

One of the most valuable things for me has been to have a few friends who pray for and with me. I have a friend who won’t hesitate to stop and pray for me on the phone if she thinks I need it. Search long and hard for these friends. I am so thankful for mine.

(Here are 5 Ways You Can Encourage a Fellow Homeschool Mom)



You Will Consider Sending Your Child to Traditional School

If you homeschool and NEVER have thoughts of sending your child to school you may need your head examined.

The structure and authority of school looks very good sometimes, not to mention the long stretches of time to be had alone at home. The idea of someone else being the “bad guy” was oh so appealing to me in the middle school years. Certainly my child couldn’t talk back to a teacher?

We have toured two private schools and sat in the parking lot outside of our local public school (there, I told you).

That thought (sometimes THREAT) process always led back to homeschool, and for that I am thankful.



Mama, Don’t Fret - Here’s the “Long View” of Homeschool

My 2019 Homeschool Graduate

I do, however, know that certain OTHER things will happen in your homeschool journey:

Your Family Will Make Beautiful Memories

My big kids look back on homeschool and have such great memories.

Let me share just a few to encourage you:

  • reading Robin Hood aloud and then playing “Robin Hood” in our woods for weeks after

  • sitting around our kitchen table notebooking as I read The Story of the World

  • taking epic field trips (Volcanoes National Park was our favorite)

  • picking apples, making apple pie, and reading How To Bake An Apple Pie and See the World

  • preparing for and executing mock trial - best when the older sibling has done it and is then there cheering the younger sibling on when it’s his turn

  • dissecting owl pellets (multiple times)

  • spending hours tracing maps and playing The Scrambled States

Mama, Don’t Fret: Here’s the Long View of “Homeschooling”

Look how little my cartographers were!

You Will Be An Influencer in Your Child’s Life

You will be the primary influence in your child’s life.

You will be acutely aware of their friendships and can help steer them through difficult situations.

I cannot stress to you how much DRAMA we avoided because my daughter did not attend a traditional school. I hear stories about how mean girls can be and am thankful we avoided that stress. In her most formative years we sheltered her (yes, I said “sheltered”) from that aspect of middle and high school.

This alone might have been reason enough to homeschool.

You Will Cater To Your Child’s Strengths and Interests

This is HUGE.

Our children show interests and strengths from a young age. We have the unique opportunity to cultivate these and see where the road leads.

If it weren’t for homeschooling I’m not sure my daughter would have had the time or exposure to the special needs community she has come to love so much. We designed a for-credit class in her senior year which consisted of her volunteer work, teaching a special needs Sunday School class, and a mentorship.

I’m seeing now that my son has a natural bent towards languages, so he will be taking Spanish and Latin this coming year. He is also showing an interest in architecture, and I am seeking opportunities for him in this area.

As your child discovers what they are (or are not) passionate about, you will start to see homeschool pay off in spades.


Your Children Will Learn To Abandon Group Think

I believe the primary outcome of a public school education is learning to think as a group.

You may not want to hear that, but as I see the out of the box way we have approached education, I believe it.

Once your children do not follow the crowd through public school you will be surprised at the shift in your family’s thinking about other systems we participate in “just because”.

Your Child Will Have Deep Relationships with You and Their Siblings

Probably the best thing I’ve seen through homeschooling is the bond it has fostered in our family.

We’ve gone through a lot of sickness and loss in the past few years, and I have seen my children comfort us and each other.

I’ve watched them act their very best and very worst at home - because home is a safe place.

Recently my daughter and I went on a mother-daughter trip and were gone for a full week. As we pulled in the driveway my son came out to greet us, and my two children chattered up a storm before we had even got in the front door. They were sharing things the other would appreciate from their week. Because they spend so much time together they have had to negotiate a relationship (again, sometimes hard fought).

The mother-daughter homeschooling relationship also required a lot of prayer and hard work. Being around each other so much sometimes made this relationship difficult, but ultimately I am thankful we grew together and served as “holy sandpaper” for each other.

I now see one child that is ready to attend college in the fall. Because God is so gracious, the struggles we have had don’t stand out in my mind. What stands out is the tremendous blessing that homeschool has been in our lives. I guess it’s a lot like childbirth, right?

As I prepare for the last four years with my youngest I feel relaxed and ready for the challenge. I know that no matter what gets thrown our way, we will bob and weave as we have always done, and it will all be OK.

There is great benefit in having the long view of homeschooling.

I hope it’s helped you, too!

I’d love to hear from you in the comments below.

Where are you at in your homeschool journey?

What are your concerns at this stage and what are you grateful for at this age?

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