This morning when I sat down to read email I came across a wonderful post at Classical Chaos. It spoke to me, because I have been struggling a bit recently with feeling so worn down, under appreciated, and in general just like everyone takes me for granted and expects me to do everything. I know these thoughts are destructive and I try to not feel like the martyr, but it's really difficult sometimes to not have a pity party. If you have a minute, read the post and really let it sink it. It's one of the best homeschooling posts I've read in a long time.
I took out my journal and copied the end verse from the post:
"Do not grow weary in doing good for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
You would have thought this verse might have changed my outlook, and it did until after lunch. Things were great until that time. I don't really know what happened, but it started with someone being disobedient, then some sassy talk, and finally it ended up with me completely frustrated and fantasizing about sending at least one of my children to public school! I know you've had those thoughts, too - right?
I still have the memories fresh in my mind of what it WAS like to have the kids in school all day. Wow, I had a clean, organized house. I was up to date on scrapbooks, toodled ed around to my favorite stores, and could work out any time during the day. Life has changed, and everyone is still adjusting. Don't get me wrong, I know we are on the right path, but it's definitely not the EASIEST path right now. Then again, life's best rewards are never come by easily.
Now that the house is quiet and the angels are in bed I can reflect back upon this verse from Galatians and know that what we are doing is indeed worthwhile. It definitely isn't easy, but we were never promised easy, were we? I'll start again tomorrow. It is a new day and I know God's promises are new each morning.